Monday, October 05, 2009
you know the idiom, 'you have to be cruel to be kind'. i feel like a hypocrite by practicing it these few days. i myself can't take it, i tend to run a lot on emotions so sometimes a friend's effort comes to waste when i take offense and cry.
J, you know i care a lot for you. but sometimes, quite often really, i'm tempted to scream my head off because YOU. SIMPLY. DONT. CARE. it's insulting to hear, i know and i'm sorry but you need to have your own drive. you cant expect some dutiful wife to be pushing behind you because obviously there isn't one.
i feel like i'm blindfolded. walking through daily motions without much thought or emotion. i'm losing touch with reality, that's for sure. slipping back into nothingness.
sometimes i think that's a good thing when i just wanna get away. but life still rolls on nonetheless. and i gotta buck up on my studies, no more half-arsed attempts.
work's hit a stalemate. seriously need to be more careful with Excel. GAH! stupid spreadsheets. workmates are really good, i love them all. seriously they're the best workmates i could ask for.
schoolmates too! i feel super bad that i'm pretty useless in my HRM classes. always have to get someone to explain or teach me whatever i need to know or do. sighs. but then again, i choose to do it so i just have to suck it in and get it done with.
J, you know i care a lot for you. but sometimes, quite often really, i'm tempted to scream my head off because YOU. SIMPLY. DONT. CARE. it's insulting to hear, i know and i'm sorry but you need to have your own drive. you cant expect some dutiful wife to be pushing behind you because obviously there isn't one.
i feel like i'm blindfolded. walking through daily motions without much thought or emotion. i'm losing touch with reality, that's for sure. slipping back into nothingness.
sometimes i think that's a good thing when i just wanna get away. but life still rolls on nonetheless. and i gotta buck up on my studies, no more half-arsed attempts.
work's hit a stalemate. seriously need to be more careful with Excel. GAH! stupid spreadsheets. workmates are really good, i love them all. seriously they're the best workmates i could ask for.
schoolmates too! i feel super bad that i'm pretty useless in my HRM classes. always have to get someone to explain or teach me whatever i need to know or do. sighs. but then again, i choose to do it so i just have to suck it in and get it done with.
what we could have been, 11:02 pm.
